Dollface -> intro

I live in a two room apartment with my mom. We’ve never really had a lot of money,

So I was raised to prioritize, when it comes to money. In 2009 I was diagnosed Schizophrenic,

I’ve always heard voices, the first times I remember it myself, was when I was about four.

I don’t have any relationship to my father, and I haven’t seen him since I was nine years old.

He used to be in prison all the time, for rubbery and stuff.

He has contacted me several times, but I came to the thought that he hadn’t changed a bit.

My father used to be my ‘hero’ and he is one of the only persons I have ever looked up to.

I have had some, not so fortunately experiences in my childhood and early teenage years.

I have seen my father beat up his girlfriend, my ex boyfriend cut himself open, my fathers gf take so many drugs, I thought she was dead, people getting to the hospital caused to fights, been beaten up, and, thats just some of it.. I've run away from home twice, been addicted to weed, and also alcohol. I have been cutting since I was 12, and I still tend to have the urge. I have been anorectic, and when I was hospitalized in 09, it was caused of difficult self damage and too much weight loss I lost in 9 kg in 4 months, because I simply didn’t eat three days in a row. I’ve been told it’s not possible to see that I have schizophrenia, unless people know.

I’ve always had a hard time accepting my outsides; I’ve always wanted to feel beautiful and perfect. Which have caused many years with very low self-esteem, and is often still a problem for me. Also, it’s really difficult for me to talk about feelings in person, and mostly people see me as childish and ignorant, but at the end of the day I’m not like that at all.

My big passion is photography, and I’m working on becoming a better one.

Some of my works are very ‘dark’ some people get offended and provoked,

While other sees it as, again childish; even though most of them are based on mental states.